i really hate this world...
i don't understand what is going on in this world...
everything seems so fake...why did i grow up?
why must i grow up n live emo-ly?
i'm not used to be like this,what changes me?this fake and unreal world?
*sigh*...i'm very tired...really tired...i'm posting emo posts so frequently now...but i don't to be like this too...T_T...
this world sucks...everything is fake...everything is untrue...
liars,backstabbers,betrayers are everywhere...i don't even know who will be the next one who will be hurting me...?
i never hurt people feelings with despicable methods before...but why people choose to hurt me?it's unfair...n even hurt me for 2 years?
whenever i think of it...my heart sinks...-.-...
maybe i did many bad things in my last life...n this life...i got all my retributions...maybe i deserve all these?-.-...this is stupid...
i hate my life...i got betrayers in my life...i got liars who lie to me...i got a lot of frenzs who left me eventually...they lied to me...they said they will be with my forever...and when young...we promised to grow up together? but what happens in the end?everyone left me...without even leaving any contacts behind...has anyone tought of my feelings before?what will i feel when i was left behind?i cried before...it seems foolish...but will they still remember me?
i was a foolish person...i was always expecting things that will NEVER ever happen...-.-...but i still carries on with my daydreaming...real foolish?
like what i had told maggie before:"dreams are beautiful because they don't happen"...
hahas...works well on me?maybe...-.-
i thought my sec 1 life will be better...but what happen in the end?
you snatched my best fren,i had lost so many best frenzs when i'm young...i never expected that even when i'm in sec 1...i'll still lose fren...and you are the main cause...you got the ability to make more frenzs...why must u snatch my onli fren in 1E1 tat time?during we confront you last time,u said tat you never snatch my fren...?oh really?you are really a great liar...you know how i felt for 2 years?you know how much i cried?you still remember how you treated me?
whenever i wanted to talk with jerlin,u will pull her away from me...and whenever there is group work,you pull her away too...even when she wanted to group with me...
have u ever think of my feelings?have you wonder what will happen to me?i don't trust people easily...because i got hurt too much when i'm young...and i'm not good in making frenzs...call me timid if you want,i'm really a timid person...useless too...-.-
jerlin was my only fren in Hua Yi,i know her for such a long time but why you chose to snatch my fren,my only fren that i can really trust in this world...did you know how much you had hurt others?but you never change...you continues...aren't you scared of having retribution?why are you such an evil person?u changed my world...into a world of more darkness...and cause me to be hopeless...
my only wish is to have many frenzs that i can trust...frenzs that will never leave me behind in the world of darkness...i'm scared of dark and lonely...anyone who knows me well will know this...hais...i can't be bothered whether you want to change or not...but don't snatch my frenzs anymore...i can be torn in pieces easily...
this world is so sucky...why everything has to happen on me...what have i did to deserve these tortures?i don't know who to trust...sometimes i really felt that this world can be so fake...everyone can leave me easily...and i will be left with nothing...i will be left in the dark...left in the lonely world...like the past...like how all my frenzs left me...-.-...
this is a random post..choose to ignore...got emo because i remember too many things...how i hope i had never entered adult's world...nor this FAKE and UNREAL world...!let me go heaven..i can do anything...just to get the pass to live in heaven...then i can be angel...i swear that i will help people when i'm an angel!...or let me disaapear into bubbles like mermaid...good too...free from this world forever...T_T
sometimes keeping promises can be very hard...so don't promise people easily by saying:"FRENZS FOREVER!"...everything will change...when promises are not kept...these promises may turn in knifes that stab people's heart forever...lyk how my heart is stabbed,i got a lot of scars in my heart...they healed...but the scars remains...i will never get to erase them away...no matter how hard i tried...
WARNING:DON'T GIVE FALSE PROMISES!!!MAKING PROMISES IS EASY!!!KEEPING THEM OR EVEN MAKING THEM TO COME TRUE CAN BE VERY IMPOSSIBLE!!!

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