found some quotes to share...hahas...
*"love doesn't walk away,people do."
"they think they really noe me but the person the really noe is the person i PRETEND to be"
"u noe u love him but u can't help crying every night because u noe he's not YOURS,he's HERS."
"u tink i'm so tough,but i just never let u see me cry."
*"if nothing lasts forever,will u be my NOTHING?"
*"it doesn't hurt to dream,it hurts more to wake up."
"YOU will be the answer when someone ask me wat m i tinking abt."
"promise that u won't foeget me,because if i tot u would,i'd never leave."
*"i want to run away and never say goodbye."
*"i'm holding on to a dream tat will never come true."
"it's really pathetic when i tried to hold on to smth that's not coming back."
"u always pick the best times to drop the worst lines."
**"love is the slowest form of suicide."
"when u left,i lost a part of me and when i saw u with her,smth was lost forever."
"don't try to fix me,i'm not broken."
"they say talk is cheap,so i bought every word u said."
"she wishes that she knew how to let u go."
*"i bite my tongue everytime u're around because blood in my mouth is better than tears on the ground."
"you tink u just want to die but in reality,u just want to be saved."
"No man is worth your tears, and the one who is would never make you cry."
"My mind tells me to give up, but my heart wont let me."
"Real love stories never have happy endings,because real love stories never end."
"It's amazing how someone can break your heart,but you still love them with all the little pieces."
"If the only place I can have you is in my dreams,i'll sleep forever."
"What if finding the love of your life means giving up the life you love?"
"What do you do when the only person who can make you stop crying in the one who made you start?"
"When you love someone,it's something,when someone loves you,it's another thing, when you love the person who loves you,it's everything."
"I don't wanna be your #1, because that means that there is a 2nd and 3rd,n i wanna be you're only one."
"Someone should sue Disney for putting the idea in little girls minds that everyone has a Prince Charming,and everyone lives happily ever after."
"you asked me what was wrong,and i said nothing,then you turned around and walked away,and the tears came down as I whispered everything."
"I always knew looking back on the tears would make me laugh,but i never knew looking back on the tears would make me cry."
"Remember that life isn't about the number of breaths we take,but the moments that take our breaths away."
LOL...i'm lame...cos i sian...so i search for quotes lor...mostly abt love...so u guys will be more interested in them...i'm not Mr.N,so i didn't put much motivational quotes...LOL...these love quotes are kinda sad...hope tat they will never happen to me one day...*green heart will never get to experience these*!
lol...tests recently...so didn't blog...-.-
got chem,bio,physics n e-maths trigo test!!!OMG...
my chem test...-.-...i got a damn beautiful grade of C6!!!a pretty n nice mark of "52"...cheers for the lousy xixi?can't imgaine i got C for my chem again...even for such a simple chapter this time!compared to the last one...i lost all my marks b'cos of careless mistakes...this suxs...><
my bio...LOL...i never listen in class...cos i was always sleepy in bio lesson...n i deducted a lot of marks...pray for me...i wonder how much will i get this time...-.-
my physics...feel like fainting...it was okay for my physics was lousy...-.-...n i got some careless already...so i wonder how much can i get too..the paper was so thick!around 9 pages?OMG!
hais...my "cheng nan jiu shi" got very lousy...cos i saw the qns wrongly...sian...
getting more n more stress...most likely next week tere will be a camp again...=.=hais...tired...-.-
on wednesday,during AEM...finalli i understand wat i PX!!!OMG...was disgusted...><
matilda n i pester nelson n the guys to tell us...but they don't want...so matilda sms her fren to tell us...LOL...
di siao nelson n bear for the PX thingy...wonder why guys can be so horny?=.=
their topic n the "PX club" they form was so...-.-
jerlin suggested we go die tgt...so we can get to heaven tgt...LOL
but i told her tat commiting suicide will not go to heaven...will only go hell...so she suggest tat we take knife n stab each other...then can die tgt...hahas...
wat a meaningless n unfair world...hard not to emo...hard to cheer up...
but i got vivian...my "da shu" forever!!!hahas...MY BIG TREE!!!
she said tat i was her "shu miao"...hahas...i'm the seedling growing under the tree...so i cant get emo...she will protect me?Oo!...LOL...
hope tat this tree will be happy forever too...this is a pretty tree who shld stay happy forever...
recently many ppl getting emo?i wonder why...not only i emo...some ppl around me are worse...-.-...emo suxs...but controlling myself from emo-ing was harder...-.-
someone cheer me up?when can i see my rainbow?
or will i only see bubbles...?the mermaid's bubbles..-.0
i forgot to bring my lobby ws home!!!OMG!!!then i cant do corrections!!!monday MUST hand in...i don't want to get scolded by Mdm A!!!i'm dead...gonna chiong on monday...hopefully nth suay will happen to me...=.=
xixi was once a cheerful gal who don't cry...she hates ppl who cries...
wat change her?i don't know,maybe someone smart could tell her...
xixi was not stupid...but she's foolish...-.-...she don't know anything...><
i love my blog song...japanese song...planetarium...seems to be a sad song...tats why i like this song...lol...sad song are always nicer than happy song...*so negative mindset*...=.=...
don't feel like blogging anymore...let me rot away or turn into bubbles instead...just make me disappear...so tat i won't get to see or feel anything...xixi got a green heart...hahas...
4:55 PM 
~I hate this world!~
i really hate this world...
i don't understand what is going on in this world...
everything seems so fake...why did i grow up?
why must i grow up n live emo-ly?
i'm not used to be like this,what changes me?this fake and unreal world?
*sigh*...i'm very tired...really tired...i'm posting emo posts so frequently now...but i don't to be like this too...T_T...
this world sucks...everything is fake...everything is untrue...
liars,backstabbers,betrayers are everywhere...i don't even know who will be the next one who will be hurting me...?
i never hurt people feelings with despicable methods before...but why people choose to hurt me?it's unfair...n even hurt me for 2 years?
whenever i think of it...my heart sinks...-.-...
maybe i did many bad things in my last life...n this life...i got all my retributions...maybe i deserve all these?-.-...this is stupid...
i hate my life...i got betrayers in my life...i got liars who lie to me...i got a lot of frenzs who left me eventually...they lied to me...they said they will be with my forever...and when young...we promised to grow up together? but what happens in the end?everyone left me...without even leaving any contacts behind...has anyone tought of my feelings before?what will i feel when i was left behind?i cried before...it seems foolish...but will they still remember me?
i was a foolish person...i was always expecting things that will NEVER ever happen...-.-...but i still carries on with my daydreaming...real foolish?
like what i had told maggie before:"dreams are beautiful because they don't happen"...
hahas...works well on me?maybe...-.-
i thought my sec 1 life will be better...but what happen in the end?
you snatched my best fren,i had lost so many best frenzs when i'm young...i never expected that even when i'm in sec 1...i'll still lose fren...and you are the main cause...you got the ability to make more frenzs...why must u snatch my onli fren in 1E1 tat time?during we confront you last time,u said tat you never snatch my fren...?oh really?you are really a great liar...you know how i felt for 2 years?you know how much i cried?you still remember how you treated me?
whenever i wanted to talk with jerlin,u will pull her away from me...and whenever there is group work,you pull her away too...even when she wanted to group with me...
have u ever think of my feelings?have you wonder what will happen to me?i don't trust people easily...because i got hurt too much when i'm young...and i'm not good in making frenzs...call me timid if you want,i'm really a timid person...useless too...-.-
jerlin was my only fren in Hua Yi,i know her for such a long time but why you chose to snatch my fren,my only fren that i can really trust in this world...did you know how much you had hurt others?but you never change...you continues...aren't you scared of having retribution?why are you such an evil person?u changed my world...into a world of more darkness...and cause me to be hopeless...
my only wish is to have many frenzs that i can trust...frenzs that will never leave me behind in the world of darkness...i'm scared of dark and lonely...anyone who knows me well will know this...hais...i can't be bothered whether you want to change or not...but don't snatch my frenzs anymore...i can be torn in pieces easily...
this world is so sucky...why everything has to happen on me...what have i did to deserve these tortures?i don't know who to trust...sometimes i really felt that this world can be so fake...everyone can leave me easily...and i will be left with nothing...i will be left in the dark...left in the lonely world...like the past...like how all my frenzs left me...-.-...
this is a random post..choose to ignore...got emo because i remember too many things...how i hope i had never entered adult's world...nor this FAKE and UNREAL world...!let me go heaven..i can do anything...just to get the pass to live in heaven...then i can be angel...i swear that i will help people when i'm an angel!...or let me disaapear into bubbles like mermaid...good too...free from this world forever...T_T
sometimes keeping promises can be very hard...so don't promise people easily by saying:"FRENZS FOREVER!"...everything will change...when promises are not kept...these promises may turn in knifes that stab people's heart forever...lyk how my heart is stabbed,i got a lot of scars in my heart...they healed...but the scars remains...i will never get to erase them away...no matter how hard i tried...
WARNING:DON'T GIVE FALSE PROMISES!!!MAKING PROMISES IS EASY!!!KEEPING THEM OR EVEN MAKING THEM TO COME TRUE CAN BE VERY IMPOSSIBLE!!!
6:41 PM
heard frm jerlin 2dae tat the mid-yr exam is siao de!!!
bio n chem is on the same date!!!LOL...how 2 study...
then geog n SS on same date also...the teachers gila ar?the 2 chapters damn lot things 2 study leh!!!i dun hav mega memory lor!!!
then maths n physics on same date...LOL...sian diao
24/4 is our EL paper le...><...sian...left so little time...stupid pi lar...><...-.-
i wan faint liao...still got tests...hmk...camps...i can realli die liao...-.-
change my blog song le...dun wan use imeem sia,stupid lor...the songs wun come out de...so use iwebmusic...better...than can keep listen to the same song(damn nice de)...!
5:58 PM
lol...2dae got HCL oral!n we noe it 2dae onli...so lame sia...><
then during bio lesson...got our test...n called Mrs Wee to mark for us...n i finished early wif some ppl...so Mrs Wee marked our paper first...so i noe my results le...
i got the same as Ginny...18/20...
wanted 2 c Huiming n Huangyu's marks...but Mrs Wee say wan go home mark...cos they wrote a lot thingy...-.-
after tat went for oral...oral was always a lame thing to me...LOL...
sian...boring...n blah blah blah...-.-
Ms Chin was the teacher hu tested me...out of the 6 chinese teachers...got 5 noe me...><...
2 is last time i participate compeition de teachers...3 is my HCL teachers...-.-...including Ms Chin(sec 1 de)...-.-
then went home wif Chieu Lin...
sian..now gonna do draft 2 for info. report le...dun wan blog liao...
camp is comin mayb this week...!!!OMG!busy!got tests comin n tons of hmk...let me die...
2dae then i found out tat XIXI is a foolish gal..T_T...mayb i'm always one...just tat i did not realise...hais...
nowadays i keep emo le..hais..bb le...
5:09 PM
2dae got speech day...woke up damn early...
then reach school veri early...lol...den i was alone...w8ing for zhiyi to come...she liar sia...say will come early...then i keep w8ing..until 7am also cant c her...
went on stage to get my $20 voucher...LOL
then went for performance...didn't get to c NCC n NPCC de marching...WTH!!!
then everyone was us was lyk keep complaining...cos we expected to c de...their unifroms so cool sia...but we didn't c them march...=.=
did not went for LG7 gathering...sian...
a bit regret sia...cos they did not went 2 eat seoul garden...(i cant afford so ex de)
LOL...but nvm...><...bio test is on monday...gonna study le!lol...-.-
physics test is comin?but i hav no idea wat teacher is tokin till now...OMG...i'm dead...!!!
5:59 PM
LOL...smth big happened 2dae...we confronted her 2dae...
i'm a weak gal...i cried...cos i suddenly rmb my sec 1 life...n how jer treated me tat time n how i was alone n lonely for such a long time...
but this is not over yet...cos i still got things haven say...
sian...at 1st i dun wan go de lor...it's lyk...i never tot of confronting her b4...LOL...hais...
i tink a person gonna h8 me a lot le...due to this confront...cos she will certainly go "complain"...>.<
then missed 1 lesson of physics...LOL...lucky teacher never scold us...
then teacher ask us whr we go...we say we settled smth...dunno hu in class say we go war,the teacher say,"now u goin 2 have war wif me..!!"
LOL...then seowting replied,"I'm READY!"...LOL...she brave sia...
then teacher say she gonna write our names in the class diary in RED...then seowting said,"purple better lar teacher..."...DIAO!she not scared of teacher sia...LOL
2dae HCL got the test...lol...lame thingy...
my physics dying le lar...><...hais...
i'm a weak person...i cries easily...i looks strong n violent...><...
y m i so useless?seowting says tat i'm weak...tats y i got bullied by her during sec 1...n not defending myself..hahas...i didn't noe tat i'm such a WEAK gal...
hais..crying suxs...but wat turns me 2 become a crybaby?
once i'm hurt,even if i recover,tere will still be scars in my heart,can u understand this?it's not tat i dun wan to forgive u n be frenzs wif u,but u hurt me too much...n left scars in me...u hurt me 2 yrs ago until now n the scars remained for 2 yrs,can't u c how much damage u caused to the others?
i dun tink these scars disappear...no matter wat...even how hard i try...i tink they will still be tere...so,dun blame me if i cant forgive u lyk the others(or mayb no 1 will even wan 2 forgive u anymore)...-.-
*i dun wan to be a weaker person...*...=.=
3:37 PM
Wednesday, April 2, 2008Y
i'm SICK...weah~~~T^T
2dae in school suddenly i have "blocked nose"...
my nose was damn irritating..then got flu...then keep coughing...hais!i h8 these...
i tink b'cos i emptied the dustbin in class 2dae?cos my nose is veri sensitive to dust...
everytime i sweep floor or do things lyk this...i get blocked nose IMMEDIATELY...T-T
last yr i wan search 4 smth...so search for my things in all the cupboards at home...then some dusty...after searching the whole hse...i get "blocked nose" immediately...my nose suxs?so easy sensitive to dust...T^T...i h8 "blocked nose"!!!
LOL...2dae got AEM in SP again...
n wif the same lecturer...2dae gonna be his last lesson wif us...GREAT!!!
cos the whole class had a HARD time understanding his eng pronounciation...diao
2dae was the same...matilda,nelson n i keep looking at each other during the lesson when the lecturer's words sound so weird!we controlled our laughter real hard n some ppl cough to cover their laughter...
let me show u some e.g...dun laugh until u faint...*i'm not being evil lar,it's just tat he sounds so funni...LOL...share wif u guys...-.-*
he say "today" as "the-day"...
"common" as "coming"...
"space-sious" as "species"...
"market" as "markit"...
"cytoplasm" as 'cytoplasma"...
"made" as "meet"...
"single" as "sing-groom"...
"cells" as "sails"...
"shape" as "ship"...
these are just some of the examples...i dun wan say too mani...*xixi is not an evil gal...xP*
we realli had a hard time understanding wat he wanna say...almost every word he spoke was weird...
we keep looking at each other 2 understand wat he's tokin...the lesson 2dae realli make me laugh lyk siao...it cheer me up?hahas..
too bad...next lesson will not be him le...><...LOL..
went e-classroom just now 2 check for my SS result for March...
bear told me 2 check...he say last month he got 90+...this month fail...then the contrast veri big...cos suddenly got red line...
lol...i got 100 and 72...i wonder y got 2 results?LOL...heck care lar...-.-
dun wan blog le...i wan do hmk...n write compo...you jin's assignment...-.-
bb...sian...
7:05 PM
finalli,i change my skin le...this is nice...
looking 4 my rainbow tat can cheer me up...LOL..-.-
lyk this skin sia...the colour comb. is gd...a new skin to change my mood too...LOL..
enjoy this skin...n ur eyes wun be so pain when reading le!lala
now i get used to changing skin le...bwahaha...no nid depend others to help me change skins...HAPPY~~~
9:05 PM
~emo!~
u guys may choose to ignore this post...it's random n stupid...
hais...i tink i'm emo again...i h8 this kind of xixi...but i cant help it...
i tink i lose the ability to smile(how mani times m i repeating this?)...
m i tat pathetic tat i nid someone 2 teach me how 2 smile?hais
y my life is screwed up lyk this,in the past i'm so happy-go-lucky n always laughing lyk crazy...wats wrong wif me now?always get emo!
hais...such a torture sia...
2dae the a-maths test already make me so miserable le...
somemore i cant go for the chemistry remedial 2dae b'cos of the chinese workshop...hais...such an important chapter...
more things are makeing me feeling stress...hais...stupid...i wan 2 smile...sec 3 life realli suxs...how i hope tat i can never grown up...i can forever be a baby n have so mani ppl to concern n love me...n most importantly...i noe nth tat's happening to me n i can smile whenever i wan...
does growing up means tat i will have lesser freedom to smile n stay cheerful?
dun blame me if i never smile bck 2 u cos i may be emo-ing...-.-
hais...i wan 2 cheer up...but how?teach me?hais...!
8:13 PM
HAPPY APRIL FOOLS DAY!!!"happy" day 2 every1...except 4 me...><
2dae the a-maths CT suxs lyk hell n i'm dead...OMG...!!!
i dun wan get a B or C again...*pray*...
the paper is damn stupid...pissed me off...n i tink i got the 1st qns wrong?LOL...so mani marks fly away...T^T...qns 3a i also wrong?lar...mani of my marks left me le...><...heartless n stupid marks...T^T
sian lar...2dae didn't get to go for the chem remedial...cos of the chinese workshop!
hais...i wan go 4 chem!...such an important chapter n i noe nth...hais...
lol...can i emo again?><...gonna do compos...T^T...the you jin thingy de...wth...
then eng compo nid 2 do corrections also...geog hmk i also never do...i dun tink i will do...><...
2dae we got bck our a-maths test paper(taken on last week de)...
sian...at 1st i got 19/25...then teacher add 1 more mark for me...so i got 20...stupid sia...
then bear got 21...he got a sticker on his paper...
then he stick it on my paper...i noe he wanna suan me...
so i ask him purposely,"u wan make me happy or u wan suan me"
then he say he suaning me,i say expected...then he say then y i still ask...
i say,"cos i wan suan u bck.."...he's gd in his studies...><
he got suan be Mdm adlin 2dae...she said tat bear so happy,laugh until cant c his eyes...LOL...so funni...then every1 laugh...LOL...a lag bear...-.-
he got tricked by me 2dae!bwahaha...
2dae i got tricked by others too...wth...><
so mani things sia...next month gonna hav camp?lol...
gonna have 3 camps...-.-!!!
i wan TIME!!!but i always feel lyk slping recently...-.-
2dae maggie n me tok abt relationship thingy...lol..wats tat...i dun understand anything related to this...LOL...i'm such a "pure" gal...-.-
anyway,i wun lyk anyone hu have a crush or have gf...n maggie agrees wif me...
relationships have got nth 2 do wif me...i wun lyk anyone at this age...tat dun suits me...-.-
some ppl lyk ppl hu have their own crush..-.-
y make ur life so miserable...?when u c ur crush smiling or tinking of another gal..wun ur heart hurts?this is so...-.-...so a piece of advice frm maggie n i,"give up if tere's someone in ur crush's heart,if not,it's gonna be a damn miserable thingy!"
hais...dun feel lyk blogging lar...so busy le...i tink mani tests r comin again...-.-
6:15 PM
I am Xixi ; Sweet 16 this year.
