2dae,i broke down again...i hav tried 2 control my tears 4 mani days le lor...T^T
i so stress le lor,then i try 2 do my best,just jy,but 2dae i'm really angry when zuhui agitated me,she dun understand anything!!!
its just a library bk,can't she just return it herself???must she said those things 2 me???i really dun hav so mani time lor,i nid do the compeition's script,nid 2 prepare 4 emcee,nid 2 chiong D&T folio,then its lyk i everyday stay bck until late late then go home
must she stress me anymore,Sunday i'm still goin 2 wat discovery center wif the SCs 4 an event,i had so mani things 2 do n i'm really stress le lor,she wan me wat,i really cant stand her lor,i dun even hav the time 2 do anything more le lor,i really h8 my life now already...y must she said those things???
she said tat she's more stress than me,she nid 2 learn the dance 2 perform 4 the shanghai trip,n TATS ALL!!!
PLS,U CALL THIS STRESS N BUSY,DID U TINK OF MY FEELINGS B4,U R REALLY SELFISH SOMETIMES!!!U ONLI NID 2 LEARN THIS DANCE N PERFORM DURING THE SHANGHAI TRIP ONCE THEN U CAN SPENT UR WHOLE HOLIDAYS ENJOYING N PLAYING IN SHANGHAI,THEN WAT ABT ME???
i nid 2 do D&T folio,nid 2 stay bck everyday 4 the compeition preparation n the emcee rehearsal,u r just learning a dance,we SCs also got ACES day dance 2 learn,i had more things than u n u called urself stress n said me,after ur dance,u can enjoy ur holidays,wat abt me,after being an emcee,i still cant enjoy my holidays,i still hav 2 do script n practice everyday 4 the compeition N i still got D&T folio,i'm not angry just over tat bk,i'm angry tat u r so selfish n u never tot of my feelings b4 saying those words 2 me...
i had already control my tears although i'm so stress recently,i had already tried my best 2 do wat i can i wat i wan is not ur selfishness,wat u said really added pressure 2 me n make me really broke down,but i tried 2 control my tears 4 falling down le,but the last sentence u said make me really go crazy n i control anymore...T^T
wat did u mean by,"u c,she's goin 2 cry again?"
wat did u mean by this,again,in ur eyes,i'm such a person,cry 2 gain sympathy,hav u ever tink b4 wat makes me cry,u had been my fren 4 such a long time but u dun understand me,i h8 crying n i really HATE myself when i cry,i dun lyk 2 cry n in front of others,i always control myself even how stress or sad m i,i h8 2 let ppl c me crying n affected their feelings,i already tried my best not 2 cry le,i even control myself 4 so mani days le,when i quarrel wif u 2dae,i also tried my best 2 control le,but must u say tat sentence,just b'cos of a bk,u had got 2 said these hurtful words???mayb u tink tat these words meant nth 2 u but it really makes me...
u noe ur words really hurt a lot???when u r under so mani stress n ppl provoked u n gave u pressure,even daying these words 2 u,wat will u feel too???
i really h8 myself 2dae,i h8 crying,esp. when i'm the 1 crying...T^T
thxs 4 chieu lin,jerlin,vivian,maggie,hsien hoon n maggie 4 comforting me 2dae,thxs 4 wat vivian said,i will rmb de,u said,"ur strength is tat u r strong enough 2 continue,after these efforts,u will get wat u want..."
i will try my best de,thxs 4 encouraging me,i gald tat i still hav frenzs tat really understand how i felt...

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